susah? i'm sorry. i'm scared.

susah kah?
susah kah nak paham now i ada u jak?
susah kah nak paham that u jak i talk about now?
susah kah nak paham that other things really doesn't matter to me anymore?
susah kah nak paham i dah xda pikir bout lain except u jak?
susah kah nak paham i mok u jak dah now?
susah kah nak paham u special k i?
susah kah?

if susah i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i never tell u before this.
i'm sorry if whatever that i've shown to u is not enough.
i'm sorry if u don't feel enough of my love.
i'm sorry if u feel that i didn't care bout u.
i'm sorry if u feel that i'm hiding something from u.

the fact is that i'm scared.
i'm scared that i will lose u.
i'm scared of getting hurt.
i'm scared that i will hurt u.
i'm scared that u will get tired of me.
i'm scared of being scared like this.

oh sedih! adios~